My condolence for your loss, Bonnieg.
Even if there was no previous history of anxiety, it would not surprising if you were struggling in coping the loss of your partner and a young
baby.
Most new instances of depression and anxiety begin within a year or so of a significant life changing event. These include bereavement, the birth
of a child (especially if it is the first), divorce, moving house, and job loss. There is also the additional risk of postpartum depression. So
even without your past anxiety issues there are at least two factors pointing to a high risk of developing an anxiety disorder and/or depression.
I urge you to discuss your situation with a doctor. On the assumption you live in the U.S., you may find the information at
http://msmonarchdancer.googlepages.com of interest, particularly the 'how to get free or low cost treatment(usonly)' page.
Best wishes
Ian
Posted by Bonnieg
my boyfriend of 4 years recently passed we have a three month old. I'm so anxsious all the time sad and nervous constantly I had some issues of being anxious alot before but now half the time I cant think straight and taking care of the baby by myself is stressfull although she has helped me some when I'm sad and is all I have could I have anxiety or depression with the symptoms of hyperness and constant worry I cant sleep at all hardly I have no insurence lost my job should I see a doctor. I cant relax at all