I think it’s been a week since the last post. Time for an update.
Suicidal depression returns. It is returning about every 12 hours. So I am spending half a day in the mire and half in the clouds. Good news is no attempts.
Bad news after being psychotic most of yesterday morning and then having an arguement with my dad whilst still hallucinating I cut.
Opened up the back of my hand good and proper. Went to A and E to get it closed. Took 12 stitches fact fans. I am worried that there is still numbing and tenderness in the area which normally doesn’t happen. Perhap nerve damage or perhaps bruising from the anaesthetic. I’ll know for sure in a week. Praying its not nerve damage. My right forearm is already screwed that way, can’t be dealing with it elsewhere. Though I can still type with it despite the pain.
Saw Dr P after A and E and he nodded and looked concerned a bit. I am to remain on current meds though if things don’t improve by the time I next see him we will either increase the mood stabiliser which is an off license use or increase it or up the antipsychotic or least palatable of the bunch change on to olanzapine. Olanzapine is an awesome drug to get you out a hole but it is hugely sedating and weight loss is not just likely but inevitable, it also has issues with diabetes. Personally I’d rather not but any port in a storm I suppose.
Lastly and mainly for those so inclined to pray I am meeting with a lecturer to discuss a module. This is at her request and I am quite anxious about it. I’m meeting her just after one- you know what to do.
As a final note as of yesterday I have been on this planet a year longer than I should’ve been- still feels like borrowed time.
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I think it’s been a week since the last post. Time for an update.
Posted in healthSuicidal depression returns. It is returning about every 12 hours. So I am spending half a day in the mire and half in the clouds. Good news is no attempts.
Bad news after being psychotic most of yesterday morning and then having an arguement with my dad whilst still hallucinating I cut.
Opened up the back of my hand good and proper. Went to A and E to get it closed. Took 12 stitches fact fans. I am worried that there is still numbing and tenderness in the area which normally doesn’t happen. Perhap nerve damage or perhaps bruising from the anaesthetic. I’ll know for sure in a week. Praying its not nerve damage. My right forearm is already screwed that way, can’t be dealing with it elsewhere. Though I can still type with it despite the pain.
Saw Dr P after A and E and he nodded and looked concerned a bit. I am to remain on current meds though if things don’t improve by the time I next see him we will either increase the mood stabiliser which is an off license use or increase it or up the antipsychotic or least palatable of the bunch change on to olanzapine. Olanzapine is an awesome drug to get you out a hole but it is hugely sedating and weight loss is not just likely but inevitable, it also has issues with diabetes. Personally I’d rather not but any port in a storm I suppose.
Lastly and mainly for those so inclined to pray I am meeting with a lecturer to discuss a module. This is at her request and I am quite anxious about it. I’m meeting her just after one- you know what to do.
As a final note as of yesterday I have been on this planet a year longer than I should’ve been- still feels like borrowed time.