I have a little crush on my acupuncturist! I can't help it! I like acupuncture, it makes me feel good! Last week she focused on my weakened leg and my sinuses (allergies) and today we did something a little different. Today she had me take my shirt off and lay on my stomach, awkward! She stuck needles in my back to help me relax and man, time seemed to move real slow! I felt like I was there for hours! After about 20 mins she had me turn over and then she treated my sinuses. I felt so good afterwards! Then I ruined it by going to Trader Joes, which I love but they are always so busy its very frustrating, and I ruined my calmness, and I should have gone to meditation class tonight, but I had too much work to do for this shoot this weekend. That is not completely accurate. Its partially accurate because I did go through my downstairs closet once again looking for this oxygen hose that I know I brought home from the hospital. My mom put it somewhere and she doesn't remember where and I can't find it. I need it for the shoot this weekend, that's why I took it, so I could use it as a prop! Well, if I don't find it I will have to buy one, but so I did that, I went thru the whole closet and I got all the medicine stuff from when I was on the IV antibiotics together, I will be taking them to the shoot, but no luck with O2 hose, you know the one that has two pieces that stick into the nose. But the rest of the time tonight was me printing out pics from the website of the show I am working on so I could make a cane for the show. Silly, maybe, but when I met with the producers this past weekend, the one was admiring my cane (the white one with black spots) and she made a comment about me having a cane for the show so I decided to make one. She gave me a bunch of postcards for the show and I printed out pics from the website on sticker paper and put them all over a cane I bought just for this occasion. Now I have 10 canes and 1 walking stick! The craziness will never end! And today I got to use the flag cane my friend gave me at Christmas time because it was President's day! She will be happy to know I used it!
Tomorrow I need to go to ISS, that is Independent Studio Services. Its a prop house. I want to get this slate they have that is on a retractable chain that you wear on your belt so you can slate your pictures so you know what scene the pictures are for. Plus I need to see if they have the O2 hose and possible IV bags. If they don't I will go to this specialty prop place for medical supplies. That is my day tomorrow. And hopefully I will get my disability check!
I tried to get my mom to buy the Wii for me and now she can't find it in PA anywhere either! So she is going to keep an eye out for them so whomever sees it first will buy it. I think I took it pretty well. I would normally get all upset about it, but this past year taught me that what is supposed to happen, happens and if its meant to happen it will. I guess I am just not supposed to get another Wii just yet. Who knows, maybe I will need the money for something more important. That's just how I try to look at things these days. It helps to keep me from getting all depressed all the time, although I do still get sad sometimes. Like last week was Valentine's Day. I used to sit at home and get drunk by myself on V day because I haven't had anyone on V day since the 10th grade. I remember it well, he gave me a Tears For Fears Tape of Songs From The Big Chair! Classy! This year I had physical therapy and then a friend took me out to lunch and then I came home, played Guitar Hero, watched TV and surfed the web- I think I checked out 3Way, the web show I am doing. It was refreshing to be sober! I have been sober for over a year now, and I am doing ok! If I can survive my birthday, New Years and Valentine's Day sober, all of which I have, then I know I will be ok!
Now for the downer part. I have been getting slight headaches lately, and not the normal kind, not that my headaches have ever been normal! I have been having pain on the left side of my head, which really freaks me out. Most of my headaches have pain on the right side because that its where most of the tumors are, well when I went to UCLA I asked if it is possible that I will ever get any on my left side, or if they think they will stay on the right side. They said its possible for them to grow on the left side as well. Now I have been getting pain on the left side, thats not good. The left side of my head hasn't been treated at all, which means I could have another surgery or gamma knife on the left side! I don't want any more I want to be done with all of it. I am trying not to worry about it, for worrying makes it worse, and just let it go. I have an MRI at the end of March and we will see then. If the pain, and really its NOT bad pain, just slight pain, gets worse I will see the docs. But other than that I am doing very well!
TTFN
Tomorrow I need to go to ISS, that is Independent Studio Services. Its a prop house. I want to get this slate they have that is on a retractable chain that you wear on your belt so you can slate your pictures so you know what scene the pictures are for. Plus I need to see if they have the O2 hose and possible IV bags. If they don't I will go to this specialty prop place for medical supplies. That is my day tomorrow. And hopefully I will get my disability check!
I tried to get my mom to buy the Wii for me and now she can't find it in PA anywhere either! So she is going to keep an eye out for them so whomever sees it first will buy it. I think I took it pretty well. I would normally get all upset about it, but this past year taught me that what is supposed to happen, happens and if its meant to happen it will. I guess I am just not supposed to get another Wii just yet. Who knows, maybe I will need the money for something more important. That's just how I try to look at things these days. It helps to keep me from getting all depressed all the time, although I do still get sad sometimes. Like last week was Valentine's Day. I used to sit at home and get drunk by myself on V day because I haven't had anyone on V day since the 10th grade. I remember it well, he gave me a Tears For Fears Tape of Songs From The Big Chair! Classy! This year I had physical therapy and then a friend took me out to lunch and then I came home, played Guitar Hero, watched TV and surfed the web- I think I checked out 3Way, the web show I am doing. It was refreshing to be sober! I have been sober for over a year now, and I am doing ok! If I can survive my birthday, New Years and Valentine's Day sober, all of which I have, then I know I will be ok!
Now for the downer part. I have been getting slight headaches lately, and not the normal kind, not that my headaches have ever been normal! I have been having pain on the left side of my head, which really freaks me out. Most of my headaches have pain on the right side because that its where most of the tumors are, well when I went to UCLA I asked if it is possible that I will ever get any on my left side, or if they think they will stay on the right side. They said its possible for them to grow on the left side as well. Now I have been getting pain on the left side, thats not good. The left side of my head hasn't been treated at all, which means I could have another surgery or gamma knife on the left side! I don't want any more I want to be done with all of it. I am trying not to worry about it, for worrying makes it worse, and just let it go. I have an MRI at the end of March and we will see then. If the pain, and really its NOT bad pain, just slight pain, gets worse I will see the docs. But other than that I am doing very well!
TTFN