I am feeling much better today, although I have had a slight headache all day. I don't feel sad and I actually did stuff! I rode my bike, went to the bank, went to the store, visited a friend, and played Rock Band (my drums arrived this morning!) I love playing RB!
My friend that I went to visit told me about this place she thinks I should check out. Says I might meet people there. Thing is, she never invites me to go when she goes. She wants me to go, but not with her. What is up with that? And another friend was trying to get me to check out classes or anything that will get me out of the house. Everyone wants me to get out, but I hardly ever get invited to join them when they go out. I didn't say never, because today I actually did get invited to something, but its a birthday dinner. I always get invited to parties and such, but it is rare for some one to invite me to do something without me prompting it. That is all I am saying. So if I go out and meet new people, why would it be any different? It has been like this for me for years, not just since my diagnosis. I just wish people would stop telling me I need to get out. I meet people, I have met many new people this year, possibly more than any of you reading this has met this year. Its not that I don't get to meet people. Granted I do spend a great deal of time at home alone, but still, I meet people and I hardly ever turn down an invitation to go somewhere.
Don't worry, I am not depressed right now, just a little annoyed. That friend wasn't the only one today telling me to get out and meet people. I was IM'ing a friend back east. Now if we lived near each other I know we would get together a lot, but she lives there and I live here. Another thing that others don't realize is that I gained a lot of weight this past year because of the weakness of my leg and the medications I am on. Right now I feel incredibly uncomfortable in my own body. Now I have never really liked my body because I've been overweight all my life, but its even worse right now. I am very self conscious of my weight and until I feel better about myself I am not ready to go out and meet people! Unless, SK, they are survivors like you and me! I am willing to meet others that know what I am going through, which is why I joined the brain tumor support group and have tried to get any reading this to join the group as well.
I know I am not the only one having trouble with friends. I met someone on an online support group and she told me she has been having the same problem. It sucks that some people can't deal with other's misfortunes. Unfortunately I don't think we live anywhere near each other so we can't get together, but we do email. I am glad we can at least be that for each other.
Enough of all that. I am feeling better and that's all that matters. I love my friends and I understand that they all have lives of their own. I just wish they knew how much their inability to make time for me, or at least call every once in awhile, hurts me. Bygones! One thing I really need to learn is how to let things go! If anyone knows how to do that, please let me know!
My friend that I went to visit told me about this place she thinks I should check out. Says I might meet people there. Thing is, she never invites me to go when she goes. She wants me to go, but not with her. What is up with that? And another friend was trying to get me to check out classes or anything that will get me out of the house. Everyone wants me to get out, but I hardly ever get invited to join them when they go out. I didn't say never, because today I actually did get invited to something, but its a birthday dinner. I always get invited to parties and such, but it is rare for some one to invite me to do something without me prompting it. That is all I am saying. So if I go out and meet new people, why would it be any different? It has been like this for me for years, not just since my diagnosis. I just wish people would stop telling me I need to get out. I meet people, I have met many new people this year, possibly more than any of you reading this has met this year. Its not that I don't get to meet people. Granted I do spend a great deal of time at home alone, but still, I meet people and I hardly ever turn down an invitation to go somewhere.
Don't worry, I am not depressed right now, just a little annoyed. That friend wasn't the only one today telling me to get out and meet people. I was IM'ing a friend back east. Now if we lived near each other I know we would get together a lot, but she lives there and I live here. Another thing that others don't realize is that I gained a lot of weight this past year because of the weakness of my leg and the medications I am on. Right now I feel incredibly uncomfortable in my own body. Now I have never really liked my body because I've been overweight all my life, but its even worse right now. I am very self conscious of my weight and until I feel better about myself I am not ready to go out and meet people! Unless, SK, they are survivors like you and me! I am willing to meet others that know what I am going through, which is why I joined the brain tumor support group and have tried to get any reading this to join the group as well.
I know I am not the only one having trouble with friends. I met someone on an online support group and she told me she has been having the same problem. It sucks that some people can't deal with other's misfortunes. Unfortunately I don't think we live anywhere near each other so we can't get together, but we do email. I am glad we can at least be that for each other.
Enough of all that. I am feeling better and that's all that matters. I love my friends and I understand that they all have lives of their own. I just wish they knew how much their inability to make time for me, or at least call every once in awhile, hurts me. Bygones! One thing I really need to learn is how to let things go! If anyone knows how to do that, please let me know!