I went to the foot doc on monday and I got my orthotics. They are not as bad as I thought they would be. I always pictured hard plastic insoles, but these are actually cusiony. I wore them for 4 hours today, day 3, tomorrow I am supposed to wear them for 6 hours. I actually think they are helping, today my leg feels better, its weird how much better it feels. I didn't notice it until after I wore the orthotics, but I went to the movies and while sitting there I realized that my leg was feeling better and then afterwards walking to my car I felt like I was walking better.
I wish it had felt better yesterday. I got a call from a friend who wanted to get me a few days of work, but they were going to be long days and lots of moving couches and such so we both decided it would be better for me to turn it down. I got so frustrated afterwards that I cried a little! That hasn't happened in awhile. After I cried I went for a walk, I really need to exercise if I want to take the next work call. I have come up with an exercise program for myself, I just need to stick to it.
I had therapy today, which was good because I was still frustrated about my leg and also about this car accident I had a few weeks ago, insurance companies aren't fun to deal with. I took care of it later and now I don't have to worry about it and if they raise my rates I will shop around when the time comes and find a new insurance company. Any, therapy, he let me just complain about everything and tell him how frustrated I was with my situation and that I am frustrated with some of my friends. My birthday is this coming weekend and I had decided not to make big plans and to stay open to things, but I don't think its too much to ask for people to return a phone call or email in regards to what we are going to do. One friend told me he wasn't going to make any plans for the weekend so we can do a few things and that he would call me last weekend to discuss further. he didn't call. I even left a message. Still today I hadn't heard from him yet so I texted him and he has other plans so he has to leave by 5pm. So that hurts, when was he going to tell me? And another friend hasn't bothered to return my call or email so I'm not sure if we are getting together. But I do know that I am having lunch with two friends on my actual birthday so that will be nice. I am tired of dealing with people who don't respect me enough to get back to me. I realize people get busy and may forget about things, but when you're making plans for someone's birthday you should return their call. I have decided from now on people get three strikes. I give up after that, I don't want to waste my time on someone who doesn't "have time" to get back to me, especially in this day and age when you can text or email, its easy and you don't have to worry about actually having to talk. Respect, that's what it comes down to.
I need to get a job and make some new friends. People who didn't know me before all this. I need to start over. My therapist said it sounds like I am in a transition period, getting better yet not being able to fully get back to work yet, at least not to the point I was before the surgery. He also said that I am too hard on myself sometimes and that I am, given my situation, doing very well. I just have to keep remembering that. I am the miracle!
I wish it had felt better yesterday. I got a call from a friend who wanted to get me a few days of work, but they were going to be long days and lots of moving couches and such so we both decided it would be better for me to turn it down. I got so frustrated afterwards that I cried a little! That hasn't happened in awhile. After I cried I went for a walk, I really need to exercise if I want to take the next work call. I have come up with an exercise program for myself, I just need to stick to it.
I had therapy today, which was good because I was still frustrated about my leg and also about this car accident I had a few weeks ago, insurance companies aren't fun to deal with. I took care of it later and now I don't have to worry about it and if they raise my rates I will shop around when the time comes and find a new insurance company. Any, therapy, he let me just complain about everything and tell him how frustrated I was with my situation and that I am frustrated with some of my friends. My birthday is this coming weekend and I had decided not to make big plans and to stay open to things, but I don't think its too much to ask for people to return a phone call or email in regards to what we are going to do. One friend told me he wasn't going to make any plans for the weekend so we can do a few things and that he would call me last weekend to discuss further. he didn't call. I even left a message. Still today I hadn't heard from him yet so I texted him and he has other plans so he has to leave by 5pm. So that hurts, when was he going to tell me? And another friend hasn't bothered to return my call or email so I'm not sure if we are getting together. But I do know that I am having lunch with two friends on my actual birthday so that will be nice. I am tired of dealing with people who don't respect me enough to get back to me. I realize people get busy and may forget about things, but when you're making plans for someone's birthday you should return their call. I have decided from now on people get three strikes. I give up after that, I don't want to waste my time on someone who doesn't "have time" to get back to me, especially in this day and age when you can text or email, its easy and you don't have to worry about actually having to talk. Respect, that's what it comes down to.
I need to get a job and make some new friends. People who didn't know me before all this. I need to start over. My therapist said it sounds like I am in a transition period, getting better yet not being able to fully get back to work yet, at least not to the point I was before the surgery. He also said that I am too hard on myself sometimes and that I am, given my situation, doing very well. I just have to keep remembering that. I am the miracle!