I have been so angry today, not really sure why, just very angry. I had my foot doc appointment this afternoon and he said my toe is healing very well. Then I went roaming around the Empire Shopping Center. My feet started to hurt and I wasn't finding what I wanted so I left. I stopped at Trader Joes on the way home to get some groceries and then came home. When I got home I played some Rock Band (only singing this time) and then I cooked dinner. Nothing in all that should have made me angry and yet angry I was. I feel a little better. I was singing my heart out in the car but that didn't seem to help. Singing Rock Band helped I guess. I just hate stupid and rude people and there were a lot of them out there today!
I think I just realized what made me angry. I sent an email to a friend before my doc appt. I had a dream last night that my best friend, the guy who hasn't talked to me since he found out I needed another surgery. In my dream he came to visit me and all was well. I sent him an email telling him about the dream and asking him to contact me. I think that made me angry. He won't contact me since I got sick and yet I can't let go of him. I really wish I could, but I miss him so much. We were close for so many years. I am angry that he won't talk to me and I am angry that I still care...
I think I just realized what made me angry. I sent an email to a friend before my doc appt. I had a dream last night that my best friend, the guy who hasn't talked to me since he found out I needed another surgery. In my dream he came to visit me and all was well. I sent him an email telling him about the dream and asking him to contact me. I think that made me angry. He won't contact me since I got sick and yet I can't let go of him. I really wish I could, but I miss him so much. We were close for so many years. I am angry that he won't talk to me and I am angry that I still care...