When times are the hardest, its what we have at the very core that matters the most. Our core values, our core people that are there the most for us. The way we make it through every day. Life goes by so fast you don't even think about it or recognize it until you are forced to. Forced to slow down. Forced to look at everyone around you with a magnifying glass because you don't have time to waste. The family that would care for you no matter what. They love you no matter what. Sometimes it doesn't sound like I have very many people around me that would do that for me. I do, however, have a lot more than most. If we had a bunch of people that would do this for us then I don't think it would be so special. I won't sit here and list the people that are special to me....lol...I don't think it works like that. Well I would soon find out that the people that I thought were special to me, I was wrong about. So I made everyone else in my life work extra hard because of those who weren't being real. That isn't fair. Those few always spoil it for the many don't they?
My family is very important to me. My sister had her wedding on a day that her and her husband met and got engaged on, and now their anniversary is on...and that day is October 15th. Its a great day for me. You see it used to belong to someone whom was very important to me. It was their birthday. And now it has been officially reassigned. It is my sister's anniversary! You see My aunt Carol, for whom this used to be her day, has not been there for me and has turned out to be a horrible person to me. When a person disappoints you really bad, it hurts. And its on a whole other level because of all that has gone on in my life. It all just happens to correspond to my diagnosis and after. As for me, I let her treat me like crap over and over because I was trying to remember her for who she used to be. I was her niece and we hung out literally every weekend. When I got diagnosed I am now ignored and now her and her husband act like I am dead already. They were very hurtful to me for the longest time.
She started hanging around people that were questionable and they started to be more important to her than her family. They would sit around and talk about my kids and us as a family. I think its sad really because if she would have had children of her own she would have had an opinion that mattered. No one wants to hear it otherwise. I would ignore it and then I would hear it from a different family member. I would hear the same thing from different people, so I would know sadly that it wasn't a lie. She was being 2faced. I used to defend her to other family members. They used to tell me that I would know soon enough. And it would be soon because she is stuck up and it's an act that she cant do forever. She would act one way to some people, and act another way to other people and another way to your husband. Now I am on the long list of people that don't like her. And thank God I am over the hurt that I have had to endure. We had the benefit of the doubt for her husband...but we could be wrong about that now too. Seems that they are the only ones who make themselves out to be jerks not the rest of the family. Now I know what everyone else is talking about. The parents that still buy it aren't going to be around forever. Then they might have to live in reality where people have to do things for themselves. All I know is there are no kids that have put up with them. The family that she has treated like crap this whole time isn't going to be there when she and her husband get old and all the sudden need someone to care and there are no children to call. Trust me on that. I fortunately know that now. I now know that I wasn't enough for her. Owell, I am glad that she isn't around me anymore. I had been hurt for a long time over her and her husbands actions. Her husband was so kind as to hang up in my face on the hardest day of my life, after I was diagnosed and needed family to care. He hung up in my face. So that told me what kind of man he was. I have been making up excuses because I really had respect for Alan. I have been in denial for a long time. They have been really close to me for over 10-15 years. Its like a long time relationship breaking up or something... and I know that they aren't looking at it like that. For all I know they never cared about me or my family one bit. And you know what, that's fine. I don't care to know anymore. I was advised wisely by my aunt Janet on when to be forgiving and when to let it go over to someone else's court so they can have their own miserable actions back to think about for a while. I know she is right. Apologize and even if they don't want to accept, it is in their court to think about and not in yours to keep hurting. And I did exactly that. I sent Carol yet another email basically saying that if we had anything salvageable in our relationship that I was willing to talk about it with her. Do you think I got a response?? Nope... and you know what... Its good enough for me. I asked her to forward it to Alan saying the same thing to him. Don't know if she did.. cant think about it. Don't think about it anymore. As I said I reassigned the day to my sister and my new brother n law's wedding day. The day they met. The day they got engaged last year. And the day they got married on this year. It's a done deal folks. I spent the whole day with my niece while my sister was enjoying the day of her wedding and the crab leg reception that I threw for her. It was only an intimate deal. Well it was a surprise to Lisa so she didn't get to invite anyone that didn't know about the surprise. My aunt Judy was able to go and now Becca has two weddings for her portfolio as a wedding photographer....lol. It was a great day all the way around. And soon enough the pictures will be posted. I haven't laughed so hard in a long time. It was a great day!
My family is very important to me. My sister had her wedding on a day that her and her husband met and got engaged on, and now their anniversary is on...and that day is October 15th. Its a great day for me. You see it used to belong to someone whom was very important to me. It was their birthday. And now it has been officially reassigned. It is my sister's anniversary! You see My aunt Carol, for whom this used to be her day, has not been there for me and has turned out to be a horrible person to me. When a person disappoints you really bad, it hurts. And its on a whole other level because of all that has gone on in my life. It all just happens to correspond to my diagnosis and after. As for me, I let her treat me like crap over and over because I was trying to remember her for who she used to be. I was her niece and we hung out literally every weekend. When I got diagnosed I am now ignored and now her and her husband act like I am dead already. They were very hurtful to me for the longest time.
She started hanging around people that were questionable and they started to be more important to her than her family. They would sit around and talk about my kids and us as a family. I think its sad really because if she would have had children of her own she would have had an opinion that mattered. No one wants to hear it otherwise. I would ignore it and then I would hear it from a different family member. I would hear the same thing from different people, so I would know sadly that it wasn't a lie. She was being 2faced. I used to defend her to other family members. They used to tell me that I would know soon enough. And it would be soon because she is stuck up and it's an act that she cant do forever. She would act one way to some people, and act another way to other people and another way to your husband. Now I am on the long list of people that don't like her. And thank God I am over the hurt that I have had to endure. We had the benefit of the doubt for her husband...but we could be wrong about that now too. Seems that they are the only ones who make themselves out to be jerks not the rest of the family. Now I know what everyone else is talking about. The parents that still buy it aren't going to be around forever. Then they might have to live in reality where people have to do things for themselves. All I know is there are no kids that have put up with them. The family that she has treated like crap this whole time isn't going to be there when she and her husband get old and all the sudden need someone to care and there are no children to call. Trust me on that. I fortunately know that now. I now know that I wasn't enough for her. Owell, I am glad that she isn't around me anymore. I had been hurt for a long time over her and her husbands actions. Her husband was so kind as to hang up in my face on the hardest day of my life, after I was diagnosed and needed family to care. He hung up in my face. So that told me what kind of man he was. I have been making up excuses because I really had respect for Alan. I have been in denial for a long time. They have been really close to me for over 10-15 years. Its like a long time relationship breaking up or something... and I know that they aren't looking at it like that. For all I know they never cared about me or my family one bit. And you know what, that's fine. I don't care to know anymore. I was advised wisely by my aunt Janet on when to be forgiving and when to let it go over to someone else's court so they can have their own miserable actions back to think about for a while. I know she is right. Apologize and even if they don't want to accept, it is in their court to think about and not in yours to keep hurting. And I did exactly that. I sent Carol yet another email basically saying that if we had anything salvageable in our relationship that I was willing to talk about it with her. Do you think I got a response?? Nope... and you know what... Its good enough for me. I asked her to forward it to Alan saying the same thing to him. Don't know if she did.. cant think about it. Don't think about it anymore. As I said I reassigned the day to my sister and my new brother n law's wedding day. The day they met. The day they got engaged last year. And the day they got married on this year. It's a done deal folks. I spent the whole day with my niece while my sister was enjoying the day of her wedding and the crab leg reception that I threw for her. It was only an intimate deal. Well it was a surprise to Lisa so she didn't get to invite anyone that didn't know about the surprise. My aunt Judy was able to go and now Becca has two weddings for her portfolio as a wedding photographer....lol. It was a great day all the way around. And soon enough the pictures will be posted. I haven't laughed so hard in a long time. It was a great day!