This is a test, this is only a test

This has to be a test...only a test. I pride myself on trying to be a woman of great faith. The knowledge that the Lord God has a plan and a certain will for my life (of which I usually know nothing about) has gotten me through some very hard times. But I am convinced that He is testing me right now. Why, I don't know. For how long, I don't know that either. But this has to be a test.

My biopsies for microscopic colitis have come back and they are negative. I do not have microscopic colitis. I do not have anything. Not that I want there to be something wrong with me but I would like reason for why I have found myself sitting in the bathroom with horrible diarrhea at least 10 times a day for the last several weeks. Something has to be causing it.

I'm working with Brightside and hopefully she will hook me up with some good information on how to start eliminating certain foods from my diet to see if there is anything that I am possibly reacting to. We know for sure it's not Celiac disease...I tested negative for that in October last year. We know I am not lactose intolerant "officially" but that doesn't mean food isn't somehow causing me problems.

I will pray through this and will eventually get my thoughts back to a more positive outlook but for right now I am really mad. I don't like this test - mainly because I don't know the answers.