A great benefit to WLS for me has been the ability to process my emotions and communicate them to other people. I'd never been good at talking about my feelings. I let things eat at me while I ate everything in sight. Now that I can't eat everything in sight, I have to deal with emotions.
But my dealing with them isn't always easy for other people. I understand that when people hear my thoughts that it could be confusing for them. Unexpected. Maybe even terrifying. So I also try to couch my feelings in appropriate language. I feel, I sense, I think, I see...
Even so, I still feel like I'm damned if I share and damned if I don't. I haven't yet learned how to react to people when their reaction to me is not what I expected or is the result of not hearing my intentions. I sometimes end up feeling even worse about a situation than I did before initiating conversation. I just want to retract everything I've said and walk away from them. And eat a cookie.
Then I'm back where I started: eat food to stuff down emotions. Shit. It just plain sucks and I feel so ill-equipped to deal with it. I wish I could shut down and walk away like I used to. But being present in my life doesn't allow it. What's a girl to do?
A great benefit to WLS for me has been the ability to process my emotions and communicate them to other people. I'd never been good at talking about my feelings. I let things eat at me while I ate everything in sight. Now that I can't eat everything in sight, I have to deal with emotions.
But my dealing with them isn't always easy for other people. I understand that when people hear my thoughts that it could be confusing for them. Unexpected. Maybe even terrifying. So I also try to couch my feelings in appropriate language. I feel, I sense, I think, I see...
Even so, I still feel like I'm damned if I share and damned if I don't. I haven't yet learned how to react to people when their reaction to me is not what I expected or is the result of not hearing my intentions. I sometimes end up feeling even worse about a situation than I did before initiating conversation. I just want to retract everything I've said and walk away from them. And eat a cookie.
Then I'm back where I started: eat food to stuff down emotions. Shit. It just plain sucks and I feel so ill-equipped to deal with it. I wish I could shut down and walk away like I used to. But being present in my life doesn't allow it. What's a girl to do?