The past three days I've spent entirely on my own (something I'm going to have to get used to when I move next month) and I feel completely lazy; I've re-done my CV and applied for a job, finally finished sorting my photo albums out, I'm far too snap happy! Put up the xmas tree and managed to sit down and write two articles for Helium. Yet I feel I should be doing so much more and I think this it where the eating disorder affects my life most, it take hours out of the day and night; I resist eating, binge, purge and tell myself how stupid/disgusting I am.
This evening I managed to stop myself from bingeing, if I had been at work I don't believe that would have happened. My mind is already planning what I am going to do tomorrow food wise; I'm purposely going to my dads for lunch so I have to eat during the day and get up early, I'm still in night shift mode and I miss the daytime!!! It's later on when my train pulls into Nottingham station I have to push my feet to go straight home and not to any food store.
I'm trying to enjoy my lazy days, we don't get many of them and every little achievement counts on this path.
This evening I managed to stop myself from bingeing, if I had been at work I don't believe that would have happened. My mind is already planning what I am going to do tomorrow food wise; I'm purposely going to my dads for lunch so I have to eat during the day and get up early, I'm still in night shift mode and I miss the daytime!!! It's later on when my train pulls into Nottingham station I have to push my feet to go straight home and not to any food store.
I'm trying to enjoy my lazy days, we don't get many of them and every little achievement counts on this path.