INSOMNIA
… is not only a movie starring Hilary Swank. It is also the theme of my week. I am so tired all day and then I lie down at night and my brain can't stop buzzing. Last night I couldn't wait to get out of anatomy so I could go home and sleep. I didn't even make my lunch for today I just went to bed. After 45 minutes it became clear I was not falling asleep so I got up and finished reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix for the 3rd time (J.K. Rowling is a genius by the way-- not many books are that enthralling on the third read through. Though it's partly because I tend to forget what I've read not long after I've finished reading so I re read them every couple years. I want to re-read book 6 now-- I've only read it once because it's REALLY sad at the end. Wow, long Harry Potter tangent. Sorry about that). Anyway I finally got to sleep around midnight and then M. got up early for work at 5:30 and I couldn't sleep anymore after that and I had to get up by 6:45 to catch the bus so I think I got maybe 5.5 hours of sleep. This morning I was craving Starbucks so I had my decaf soy cappucino and an 8 grain roll for breakfast-- I'll save my blended salad for lunch. I'm not pretending that that was an ETL breakfast but it could have been worse. The past 6 weeks have been unimaginably frustrating and not how I wanted to start this year. Even though this month is turning out to be incredibly stressful as well I believe I can turn it around. On Saturday I will go back to working out and I will get very strict with my diet-- 6 week plan, no more chocolate cherry ice cream, only three ETL meals a day no over eating and at least at first, around 1400 calories a day. I expect I'll increase that a little when I get my strength back and can do longer exercise sessions but we'll see. I need more sleep, clean diet, exercise and some stress relief. When I'm not so tired we can talk more about how I can do this… First, I have to get through today without falling asleep at my desk. M. is threatening to force feed me vodka to make me sleep tonight.
INSOMNIA
… is not only a movie starring Hilary Swank. It is also the theme of my week. I am so tired all day and then I lie down at night and my brain can't stop buzzing. Last night I couldn't wait to get out of anatomy so I could go home and sleep. I didn't even make my lunch for today I just went to bed. After 45 minutes it became clear I was not falling asleep so I got up and finished reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix for the 3rd time (J.K. Rowling is a genius by the way-- not many books are that enthralling on the third read through. Though it's partly because I tend to forget what I've read not long after I've finished reading so I re read them every couple years. I want to re-read book 6 now-- I've only read it once because it's REALLY sad at the end. Wow, long Harry Potter tangent. Sorry about that). Anyway I finally got to sleep around midnight and then M. got up early for work at 5:30 and I couldn't sleep anymore after that and I had to get up by 6:45 to catch the bus so I think I got maybe 5.5 hours of sleep. This morning I was craving Starbucks so I had my decaf soy cappucino and an 8 grain roll for breakfast-- I'll save my blended salad for lunch. I'm not pretending that that was an ETL breakfast but it could have been worse. The past 6 weeks have been unimaginably frustrating and not how I wanted to start this year. Even though this month is turning out to be incredibly stressful as well I believe I can turn it around. On Saturday I will go back to working out and I will get very strict with my diet-- 6 week plan, no more chocolate cherry ice cream, only three ETL meals a day no over eating and at least at first, around 1400 calories a day. I expect I'll increase that a little when I get my strength back and can do longer exercise sessions but we'll see. I need more sleep, clean diet, exercise and some stress relief. When I'm not so tired we can talk more about how I can do this… First, I have to get through today without falling asleep at my desk. M. is threatening to force feed me vodka to make me sleep tonight.