I'm depressed. Why? Cause it's the end of my cycle. My period is due tomorrow. Sure, it may not come, but the husband and I have been trying for 16 months now. Out of those 16 months, we got pregnant twice, but lost both pregnancies. So in reality, we have been trying for 13 cycles. And out of those 13 cycles, the dreaded period showed up 10 times, as this time will be cycles 11 if I'm not pregnant.
In the beginning of each of my cycles I start out depressed, the feeling coming from the fact that I just got my period. Over the next week or so I begin to feel better because I know I will be ovulating soon and will have yet another chance to get pregnant. I feel good during ovulation, but afterwards depends on whether or not I feel as though we had the appropriate amount of sex on the appropriate days. This past ovulation left me hopeful, but not sure. As the next week and a half continued I became more and more positive because I was physically feeling weird, a good sign that I may be pregnant. Now I feel like crap. Sure I still feel a little weird, but based on the odds, it's probably just my impending period. Which is depressing.
I meant to do something completely different than this today, but I just can't get myself in the mood. I would promise to do the topic - Loss due to outside factors - tomorrow, but tomorrow I'll either be doing something on how getting your period sucks or something on pregnancy tests if it actually doesn't show. Bear with me, no matter what the outcome, things will be back to normal in a few days.
I'm depressed. Why? Cause it's the end of my cycle. My period is due tomorrow. Sure, it may not come, but the husband and I have been trying for 16 months now. Out of those 16 months, we got pregnant twice, but lost both pregnancies. So in reality, we have been trying for 13 cycles. And out of those 13 cycles, the dreaded period showed up 10 times, as this time will be cycles 11 if I'm not pregnant.
In the beginning of each of my cycles I start out depressed, the feeling coming from the fact that I just got my period. Over the next week or so I begin to feel better because I know I will be ovulating soon and will have yet another chance to get pregnant. I feel good during ovulation, but afterwards depends on whether or not I feel as though we had the appropriate amount of sex on the appropriate days. This past ovulation left me hopeful, but not sure. As the next week and a half continued I became more and more positive because I was physically feeling weird, a good sign that I may be pregnant. Now I feel like crap. Sure I still feel a little weird, but based on the odds, it's probably just my impending period. Which is depressing.
I meant to do something completely different than this today, but I just can't get myself in the mood. I would promise to do the topic - Loss due to outside factors - tomorrow, but tomorrow I'll either be doing something on how getting your period sucks or something on pregnancy tests if it actually doesn't show. Bear with me, no matter what the outcome, things will be back to normal in a few days.