As planned, on the way home from class today, I stopped by the store to pick up a pregnancy test. I nearly backed out, thinking that it would be prudent to wait on my period for one more day. But when a thorough search for any signs of bleeding failed to materialize, I decided that even if it was negative, today was the day that I would know for sure. So, the purchase I made -- 3 pee sticks; just in case I needed back-up.
It didn't take long for the positive to show up. I was on the phone with Tony, but other than reporting the results, I was rendered speechless. I just kept staring at the test. But the results remained the same, after 17 months of trying, I am pregnant. You would think after all of this time, I would have lots to say. But I am too overwhelmed with emotion to formulate sentences that make sense.
I go in tomorrow morning at 7:30 for beta hCG and will have the results by tomorrow afternoon. I think it will feel more real after that; I think feeling excited will feel more safe after that. Right now I just feel thankful and blessed and oh so excited. I can't believe it: I'm pregnant!
-- Mya
* Just a note to all of our in-real-life friends. We are not announcing yet, you are part of a special few who know. Please keep our confidence.
It didn't take long for the positive to show up. I was on the phone with Tony, but other than reporting the results, I was rendered speechless. I just kept staring at the test. But the results remained the same, after 17 months of trying, I am pregnant. You would think after all of this time, I would have lots to say. But I am too overwhelmed with emotion to formulate sentences that make sense.
I go in tomorrow morning at 7:30 for beta hCG and will have the results by tomorrow afternoon. I think it will feel more real after that; I think feeling excited will feel more safe after that. Right now I just feel thankful and blessed and oh so excited. I can't believe it: I'm pregnant!
-- Mya
* Just a note to all of our in-real-life friends. We are not announcing yet, you are part of a special few who know. Please keep our confidence.