I just finished taking a nice hot shower and making myself a tea.Something I just love doing,when coming down from another crazy ass day in the life of Rosy, and yes of course wearing my nice comfy fleecy pj's and an oversized sweater.
But tonight was different. Why? Because I got myself thinking again. And actually I think I came up with a conclusion as well. Something I may have just figured out.
As you all might have noticed, lately, my posts have been somewhat more on the "UP" side. I have been happier, I have been joking around more and to be honest, I actually have been starting to regain who I was and who I always have been. Interesting fact when thinking about it.
Where did that crazy part of me go this past year?
I realized tonight, that I think this is what "my" personal problem is/was. I need to find balance in my life. What I mean by that is, even though I really want to still keep in shape, and be healthier, and the best I can be physically and mentally...at the same time, for one year(transformation year)...I personally got so caught up in the whole project, and so focused on the end goal and what I personally wanted to achieve, that I basically forgot about that other side to me. One that was JUST as important.
The side who makes "me" who I am, and how that makes me different in comparison to others. We are all different and unique in our own ways which is what makes each and every one of us special.
The side that I am talking about in my case, is the more easy going side.
A person always ready to enjoy a laugh, one who just loved to just smile and hang out with friends whenever she could, who would see the light in different situations, where others could not, someone who never judged, and who always saw everyone as equal. Not at all superficial like most women, but yet, a women next door type who would just be comfortable in pajamas. Someone crazy enough to just chop her hair off..not having a care in the world about what others might think. Taking chances where others would not even dare. Speaking openly and honestly about topics that others would not even touch.
...you see this is the side that was pretty much cut off I suppose. And I think this is something that I should NOT have done. Getting so wrapped up in the whole thing, that in the end, no wonder I felt lost.
I was so serious for that year, that I felt like I didnt even know myself anymore or who I was or suppose to be.
It was a great experience don't get me wrong, and in the end, because of my hard work and dedication, yes, I did get to experience life in a whole different way, something that I never would have had the chance to experience, but I think I still needed part of that old Rosy in there, that I ended up neglecting and forgetting about.
I have been so happy lately. A completely different person all together compared to just a month ago. And I think its because I have given myself that time, to reflect, and to come around again, and to be the person I am suppose to be.
I am not sure if this makes sense to any of you reading, but tonight, it just made sense to me.
I never want to lose out again and forget, who I am, or what I stand for.
Anyways, we must always remember to be who we are. Never EVER lose sight on that. No matter what. Don't let life get so crazy, that you end up just not being YOU anymore. Life is just so short. Remember all your friends, and loved ones. Remember the special times that you might have shared with people, because these experiences have probably made you who you are today.
So my goal...my brand new goal from here on in, is to work on myself to find BALANCE. Thats right!
I have just too much stuff going on right at this moment..but mid month...its time to find balance in my life. To be the crazy woman I have always been known to be,taking chances, to be strong and fit, but most importantly to also incorporate the funny and cute side as well and to never lose sight of that...NOW TELL ME THAT IS NOT BALANCE. That almost sounds too good to be true...but this is my new goal. And I am going to try my very best to achieve it.
Rosy:)
But tonight was different. Why? Because I got myself thinking again. And actually I think I came up with a conclusion as well. Something I may have just figured out.
As you all might have noticed, lately, my posts have been somewhat more on the "UP" side. I have been happier, I have been joking around more and to be honest, I actually have been starting to regain who I was and who I always have been. Interesting fact when thinking about it.
Where did that crazy part of me go this past year?
I realized tonight, that I think this is what "my" personal problem is/was. I need to find balance in my life. What I mean by that is, even though I really want to still keep in shape, and be healthier, and the best I can be physically and mentally...at the same time, for one year(transformation year)...I personally got so caught up in the whole project, and so focused on the end goal and what I personally wanted to achieve, that I basically forgot about that other side to me. One that was JUST as important.
The side who makes "me" who I am, and how that makes me different in comparison to others. We are all different and unique in our own ways which is what makes each and every one of us special.
The side that I am talking about in my case, is the more easy going side.
A person always ready to enjoy a laugh, one who just loved to just smile and hang out with friends whenever she could, who would see the light in different situations, where others could not, someone who never judged, and who always saw everyone as equal. Not at all superficial like most women, but yet, a women next door type who would just be comfortable in pajamas. Someone crazy enough to just chop her hair off..not having a care in the world about what others might think. Taking chances where others would not even dare. Speaking openly and honestly about topics that others would not even touch.
...you see this is the side that was pretty much cut off I suppose. And I think this is something that I should NOT have done. Getting so wrapped up in the whole thing, that in the end, no wonder I felt lost.
I was so serious for that year, that I felt like I didnt even know myself anymore or who I was or suppose to be.
It was a great experience don't get me wrong, and in the end, because of my hard work and dedication, yes, I did get to experience life in a whole different way, something that I never would have had the chance to experience, but I think I still needed part of that old Rosy in there, that I ended up neglecting and forgetting about.
I have been so happy lately. A completely different person all together compared to just a month ago. And I think its because I have given myself that time, to reflect, and to come around again, and to be the person I am suppose to be.
I am not sure if this makes sense to any of you reading, but tonight, it just made sense to me.
I never want to lose out again and forget, who I am, or what I stand for.
Anyways, we must always remember to be who we are. Never EVER lose sight on that. No matter what. Don't let life get so crazy, that you end up just not being YOU anymore. Life is just so short. Remember all your friends, and loved ones. Remember the special times that you might have shared with people, because these experiences have probably made you who you are today.
So my goal...my brand new goal from here on in, is to work on myself to find BALANCE. Thats right!
I have just too much stuff going on right at this moment..but mid month...its time to find balance in my life. To be the crazy woman I have always been known to be,taking chances, to be strong and fit, but most importantly to also incorporate the funny and cute side as well and to never lose sight of that...NOW TELL ME THAT IS NOT BALANCE. That almost sounds too good to be true...but this is my new goal. And I am going to try my very best to achieve it.
Rosy:)