Chubby Woman Speaks

by Maria's Last Diet

Dear Maria...

I always feel caught in the middle.

I'm not obese.

I do not have an eating disorder per se.

I do not have anorexia.

I am not bulimic.

I do not throw up or starve myself.

I don't think I'm a compulsive overeater.

If I'm a compulsive anything, I'm a compulsive dieter. Every Monday I start, every Saturday I stop.

I'm about 25 lbs more than I'd like to be, and to lose it wouldn't make me painfully thin, or anything like that. I'm 5'4", and I'd like to weigh around 125 lbs, instead of the chubby 151 I am now.

When I blow my diet and fail to lose the weight, I always say, "Oh well, it's not like I'm obese or anything."

But who am I saying this to? It's no one but myself. So, let me say this. OK. I'm not obese or bulimic, but I'm not happy at 151.

Maybe my weight thing isn't so dramatic, and I don't fit into one of the most talked about weight problem categories.

I still need an answer.

    - Tracy