So yeah, I mighta heard that phrase today.
The DH never reads the blog - unless it happens to be open and he happens to be on my computer. Today - however enthralled he was that a law firm would Read A Freaking Blog, he read my front page. Scrolling down to that post yesterday with some photographic timeline, he sees the lowest weight photo - and exclaims:
"An-oh-rex-ick. You look(ed) anorexic." Just a verbal diarrhea - he couldn't stop it.
WTF? I was about twenty pounds from my "goal" at that point. (See below.)
My husband is much more used to a slightly more plump version of me. Or at this size, which I've been for the majority of the last three years. That 150 pound variety Beth only happened for a minute. (As I started regaining some as soon as I started working that summer.)
This is when it stopped, and I looked "healthy" in my judgment, but, the skin drove me crazy, as it does still:
But, what on earth possessed him to call me anorexic? The fact that I had collar bones? I'm merely 14 pounds heavier now than the photo - so - now I'm fat enough?
| BMI | Weight Status |
| Below 18.5 | Underweight |
|
18.5�24.9 | Normal |
 25.0�29.9 | Overweight  |
| 30.0 and Above | Obese |
For what it's worth - a woman, at five feet whatever inches and 150 pounds is still "overweight." 130 pounds is barely in the normal level, it's closer to overweight. I am still quite close to OBESE. "Overweight" right now, still, as defined my the medical community. At my height, to be at a normal weight? I can be as low as 102 ****ing pounds. 1-0-2. (I'm not doing that, no. That's a promise.)
Whatever, I know he didn't mean anything by it - it is just that I look much different with even a slight weight change. Wrap your head around THAT, pre-ops. You can gain and lose 10-15 pounds in a few days when you're a super morbidly obese girl, and once you hit the land of normal weight? 10-15 pounds makes you "anorexic" or "fat! Who knew it would be that touchy?
What is he going to think (or anyone else for that matter) if I do reach "goal"- or reach goal AND have plastic reconstructive surgeries?
Are people going to point and laugh? I think not. They're more likely to have done it to the 320 pound version of Beth.
Point and laugh. They did, to her:
People don't look at me and judge so harshly anymore - sometimes it's nice to blend in.
But, if I go too far the other direction? Folks will be pointing and laughing again.
Do I have to be the typical size 14 American woman in mom-jeans with a fat ass to blend in these days?
I don't know. To be perfectly honest - when I start getting closer to normal - I start doing things that make me "unique" in some way. The hair - definitely a way to be different. I don't see many straight normal sort of overweight women my age with my "do." Maybe I need to be unique - because I am different? I'm not a typical girl, never was. I need to stand out in more subtle ways, I suppose, but I don't want to stand out because I'm too fat or quite opposite, "anorexic" looking.
*I know it sounds harsh - but he didn't mean anything by it. In fact, when I see photos of his lowest point, I think, "Man, you were pointy." But, I did not call him manorexic.
So yeah, I mighta heard that phrase today.
The DH never reads the blog - unless it happens to be open and he happens to be on my computer. Today - however enthralled he was that a law firm would Read A Freaking Blog, he read my front page. Scrolling down to that post yesterday with some photographic timeline, he sees the lowest weight photo - and exclaims:
"An-oh-rex-ick. You look(ed) anorexic." Just a verbal diarrhea - he couldn't stop it.
WTF? I was about twenty pounds from my "goal" at that point. (See below.)
My husband is much more used to a slightly more plump version of me. Or at this size, which I've been for the majority of the last three years. That 150 pound variety Beth only happened for a minute. (As I started regaining some as soon as I started working that summer.)
This is when it stopped, and I looked "healthy" in my judgment, but, the skin drove me crazy, as it does still:
But, what on earth possessed him to call me anorexic? The fact that I had collar bones? I'm merely 14 pounds heavier now than the photo - so - now I'm fat enough?
For what it's worth - a woman, at five feet whatever inches and 150 pounds is still "overweight." 130 pounds is barely in the normal level, it's closer to overweight. I am still quite close to OBESE. "Overweight" right now, still, as defined my the medical community. At my height, to be at a normal weight? I can be as low as 102 ****ing pounds. 1-0-2. (I'm not doing that, no. That's a promise.)
Whatever, I know he didn't mean anything by it - it is just that I look much different with even a slight weight change. Wrap your head around THAT, pre-ops. You can gain and lose 10-15 pounds in a few days when you're a super morbidly obese girl, and once you hit the land of normal weight? 10-15 pounds makes you "anorexic" or "fat! Who knew it would be that touchy?
What is he going to think (or anyone else for that matter) if I do reach "goal"- or reach goal AND have plastic reconstructive surgeries?
Are people going to point and laugh? I think not. They're more likely to have done it to the 320 pound version of Beth.
Point and laugh. They did, to her:
People don't look at me and judge so harshly anymore - sometimes it's nice to blend in.
But, if I go too far the other direction? Folks will be pointing and laughing again.
Do I have to be the typical size 14 American woman in mom-jeans with a fat ass to blend in these days?
I don't know. To be perfectly honest - when I start getting closer to normal - I start doing things that make me "unique" in some way. The hair - definitely a way to be different. I don't see many straight normal sort of overweight women my age with my "do." Maybe I need to be unique - because I am different? I'm not a typical girl, never was. I need to stand out in more subtle ways, I suppose, but I don't want to stand out because I'm too fat or quite opposite, "anorexic" looking.
*I know it sounds harsh - but he didn't mean anything by it. In fact, when I see photos of his lowest point, I think, "Man, you were pointy." But, I did not call him manorexic.